Another day.

I had a week like I imagine most people on this Earth experience atleast once in their lives. I felt overwhelmingly disappointed by my food/beverage choices which sent me in an emotional spiral which inturn lead to an one week funk. What did I eat that made me so darn upset you may ask? One day last week I had a plate of fried French fries I would argue that “it was my time of the month ” but this time comes every single month and I seldom have any issues with cravings French fries. 3 days later, I threw one of my closest friends in the world a surprise 40th Birthday and indulged in all the birthday treats. I made my mind up that the next morning I was going to get back on track and cleanse my body of sugar/carbs yet…I had 2 shots of tequila with a group of girlfriends at a girl’s night. 🤦🏾‍♀️

Sundays I typically try to do nothing and rest my body however I felt compelled to workout so I took a Zumba class and did some light lifting for about 20mins. I suddenly realized I need to STOP playing this blame game and feeling guilty! A few bad days doesn’t determine my entire life! If I keep feeling like a failure for indulging 3 nights, these indulgences will overcome my life and become a daily occurrence until I end up back at 300lbs!

This afternoon I immediately went to the store and purchased 2 large packages of boneless/Skinless chicken thighs and smoked them to perfection. I got rid of any junk food in my home (tomorrow is trash day) and stocked up on fresh veggies and salad. I then took a nap and rejuvenated my soul. Everything will be just fine.

It is very easy to spiral out of control by defeating thoughts over small actions. I have to remind myself every moment of every day that I am worthy of living my best/healthiest life.