Trying times & root Chakra
It has been a heck of a year. Every one of my kitchen appliances and garbage disposal in my kitchen needed replacement,the country shut down and I was unemployed for weeks due to COVID, political chaos with the presidential election, I had odd feelings of discord with some of my closest friends due to extremely different political views and importance if COVID- which seemed to go hand and hand and a grumpy teenager who just wants to hang out with his friends while I am doing my darndest to help with home schooling, work and keep my parents (both in their 60s) safe. This is the short list of the multitude of issues currently revolving in my life.
One of the largest most important fact i have learned on this health/fitness journey is that mental health is the basis of staying as healthy as I can physically and emotionally. A large part of my daily resetting is meditating for 5-10 mins every morning repeating a list of counter statements to my emotional wrecking thoughts. I tend to worry non stop about being a great provider to my kids, if we are putting away enough for retirement, if we are saving enough- the list goes on for hours. When our appliances gave out, purchasing an entire appliance package gave me anxiety. I really didn’t want to make a large purchase at a time when the world has taken an “all men for themselves ” mentality. We already had to dip into our savings to help our older boys afford their bills and I was laid off. However- the dishwasher smelled horrible from sitting unused, the fridge was 100% broken. To fix the fridge was 50% the cost of buying a new one and wasn’t guaranteed to last more than 6 months, the microwave wouldn’t even turn on and it was way cheaper to purchase a appluance package than individual appliances.
My concerns since I was a child has been my basic survival impractical thinking, which directly impacts my root Chakra. What if I am late to school! My entire LIFE could be ruined! What if I don’t get a part time job!? How can I save for college without extra money!? If I don’t go to college- my whole LIFE could be ruined! What if I don’t save enough, what if I can’t pay a medical bill if an emergency happened?! If I don’t prepare- my credit could be ruined- if my credit gets ruined it would be impossible to buy the things I want/need and even if I can buy them, it would be so much more expensive due to poor interest rates! Then my quality of life will diminish and if my quality of life diminishes- so will my kids!
There is a thin line between being responsible and concerned and living in constant stress and fear. Even though I was born with a worry gene- I can focus my energy on being positive and taking care of myself emotionally. When I get extremely stressed, I overeat all the wrong foods and drink…a lot. I become reckless/ careless with this Temple the Universe has given me! Food is fuel- not the definition of happiness.
I have taken a couple of months to withdraw from most friends and focus on me. The people in my world were causing stress. I am sure we ALL have our stresses right now, I don’t have the strength nor desire to take on anyone else’s vibes at the moment. I have been reading self help books. Staying off of social media and spending more time in the peace of outside. Adding my “thankfulness jar” and daily meditation has been life changing.