Boredom, bad weather & food?
Once upon a time I associated every part of my existence, in some way or another, with food. I was reminded of my mental and emotional growth over the years this morning when I had a client explain how difficult it was to fill their time when they weren’t surrounding their thought process with food! It didn’t help that this week has been extremely cold (in the negatives) and snowy.
I never want to project an expectation upon any one. We all think differently and experience life differently so I began explaining the list of items I had on my personal to-do list. These items may not be fun but they definitely need to be done. I need to wet dust my blinds, go through clothing in my closet to ensure I need/want them all, wash and paint, baseboards, go through my old taxes and shred ones that are past the age of necessity of keeping…the list goes on and on. There use to be a time when my life was filled with a need to go to the grocery store to prepare dinner and make Valentine’s cookies for the kids but now…the old kids received a bag of sugar free chewimv gum (which they LOVED)! Done are the days of expecting daily home cooked meals. Now I believe in food prepping and left overs! Now, I have slowly been able to shift my focus on how I could spend my time improving myself, my life, and my kids lives through experiences. Now, instead of meandering in the kitchen because it was ‘time” to eat, I eat when I am hungry. Food isn’t a treat. Food is fuel.
This is not a post to pat myself on the back. This is a post of reflection. I didn’t become over 300lbs by accident. Theres was emotional work to do, mental work to do, physical work to do and spiritual work to do. I am going to acknowledge these changes were slow and took many years to achieve. When I thought about how I fill my time and what keeps me from focusing on food, I can honestly say I focus on my my life and how to progress myself and other forward.
I have learned how to unapologetically love myself.