NYE Resolutions 2023
This year for my birthday I just felt…out of place. I didn’t feel as cute or sassy. I felt fluffy and ran completely down- probably because I was🤣. I wore all black because I felt it hid all the fluff better. I love color. Who is this woman!?
My mother and I began operating our non-profit Jan 3rd 2022. Once that non-profit started, it was *almost* the straw that broke the camel’s back. Starting operating our non-profit was the last ball I could juggle before dropping all of my balls on the ground. Prior to starting to operate our non-profit, my schedule was slammed with Health Coaching clients, personal training clients, teaching workout and nutrition classes for the City of Loveland, helping my 17 year old son navigate through school and I also have my then 2y.o and 3 y.o (now 3 y.o and 4 y.o) daughters to take to activities, partial early education classes and all of their extracurricular activities. I also need to throw into the mix the added responsibilities I had at home. My husband took a promotion, which pulled him away from home 20 plus more hours a week. When he got home from work, all he could do was watch television and doze off from sheer exhaustion. My husband was never “off.” On “Off days” after he went into work to check on things, he would follow the same TV watching dosing off routine.
I felt like I couldn’t get a grip on my personal life. I now had to do so much more on my own when I was already scrambling for time. I refused to ask my partner for help because he sacrificed everything he was to help me transition to the health/wellness field full time 10 years ago. Anyone who ventures off into their own business knows the first 2 years is *ROUGH* and financially draining. My hubby worked harder and longer to keep us financially afloat while I floundered around trying to make a full-time career for myself on a career path that is VERY difficult to financially succeed in. He never complained. Never. The least I can do is hold the home down for a few months while he is trying to live his dreams out 💕
I was not getting to the gym, food prepping or logging intake. I would drag through each day only to literally pass out from exhaustion at 10pm nightly, then get up at 6am to start the day again at 630am.
One day my husband came home and asked me how my day went and I lost my mind on him. One comment I said was “I can’t even get to the gym!!!!!!!🤬 I am getting fatter by the second!!!!” My husband turned and looked at me calmly and said ” you COULD get to the gym, you just don’t want to make TIME to go to the gym. You have 24/7 access to the gym. You COULD make better food choices, you are choosing to not make a commitmentto your routine.”
At first, I was extremely angry that my husband would suggest I could find time to get to the gym. When could I possibly go to the gym!? How could I food prep!?Then I realized, I could make it to the gym at 445am. Instead of watching television or reading a book before bed, I would just have to go to bed at 845pm and get up at 445a to make it to the gym at 530am-630am. I would have to be home by 7am, get the girls up and ready, then head to work by 820am. My day would continue as normal from there. I could buy a rotisserie chicken and salad mix. Crappy food is just more convenient.
I had to take the advice I give to clients EVERY. DAY. If you want your health and fitness bad enough, you WILL figure out how to make it happen. I went 7 months in a chaotic downward spiral. I was gaining weight, fluffy from not working out, uncomfortable in all of my clothes and bitter at everyone else for living their best lives. I felt as if I was getting slighted. I was treating myself poorly and not prioritizing myself.
I had to stop the spiral and take responsibility for my part in it. Life isn’t easy. Routines can be hard to keep. Life continues to happen. It is up to me to organize the chaos the best I can and take responsibility for my personal actions.
This all leads me to my 2023 Resolution. I will be ACCOUNTABLE and CONSISTENT within my actions every day. I need to work on being consistent even when times are ROUGH and holding myself accountable for personal consistency.
My 2022 was mostly a hectic hot mess because I lost accountability for the things I could have maintained and/or controlled. It was easier to blame having young children, starting a non-profit, having less help at home, working 2 other jobs, my increased clientele with health coaching, having a lack of time due to work and increased home responsibilities…but the truth is, I COULD have kept a consistent healthier routine with a little more organization. I could have cut some unnecessary items/people/things out of my schedule to ensure I had enough time for me. I could have said “no” more to clients who wanted me to work harder for the same pay by asking for workout routines and other health coaching materials that would have me working 2 extra hours a day at home. I could have left a list for my husband and said he would have to figure out how/when to get the items done because I needed more me time.
I lost control. I lacked accountability. I was not consistent with my expectations or routines. I did not demand my partner help figure out how to have better work/life balance. I played the blame game. Lesson learned. Now, it is time to make 2023 a better year! I will be CONSISTENT.
I will achieve all of my dreams and desires in 2023. This is what I have declared.
***Please note. I am NOT a medical doctor and I do not have any medical degrees. Everything written within these pages are from personal stand points and opinions. Please consult your physician/doctor/get medical advice for any and everything you do.
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